There’s a hidden story in her eyes
There’s a hidden story in her eyes: She dragged herself out of her warm, cozy bed.Shivering, she made her way to the unheated bathroom, the cold floor sent chills through her bare feet and up her spine. She removed her clothes quickly, blearily looking into the mirror. The bathroom fogged as the hot water gushed out.
She poured the hot water on her body, letting it burn away her bottled emotions, her secrets.Her skin turned red, yet she ignored the signs of her body telling her that it was unbearable and continued pouring the water until she felt numb enough.
Stepping out of the tub, making her way to the bedroom with legs that felt like overcooked spaghetti…she was too weak to fight, coward enough not to make an effort to believe in herself.
A glance into the mirror, she sees puffy eyes, scarred face, pain hidden in her pride. She sees a face which she found nauseating.
She leaned against the bed with knees brought forward and pressed against her chest.Tears of razor blades ran down her face, she’s lost herself emotionally and mentally.
The air became stuffy, her breathing got more difficult as each breath sent a sharp piercing pain in the chest .She crawled back into bed after crying profusely, leaving her feeling exhausted. She had no positive vision to help her move forward and leave home for the day .Facing the world seemed impossible to her.
She hugged her tear stained pillow and shed silent tears until she fell asleep.She was fighting a war against reality and the devil embedded in her head.
Life isn’t fair, every individual on this earth has faced numerous hardships, sometimes one after the other , not giving them a chance to heal from the previous difficulties. But no matter what this life throws at you and no matter how unfair every aspect of this life may seem, never allow it to defeat you or define who you are .
You’re a survivor of the unfairness of this life. You have what it takes to push forward. The first step in achieving this is to BELIEVE in yourself .Believe all that happens to you is good . Even when Allah Ta’ala allows bad things to happen, there’s something good behind it and you should not let yesterday’s mistakes and failures ruin a good today .
You should love yourself, know your worth, appreciate yourself and remind yourself that it is better to try and fail than fail to try.
Remember this sinful slave in your esteem duas inshaAllah.