DOUBTING YOURSELF: Did you ever have those days where you woke up feeling emotional, drained out, you had no liss to do anything positive.
All you did was cry and question yourself about life.
You thought of how society looked at you, what they expected from you, would they turn against you if you changed certain things in your life.
You cried profusely thinking how perfect your life is in the eyes of other’s, yet they had no clue about the difficulties, failures you could be experiencing because you’re always putting up a strong front, bottling everything up and not letting the weak side of you surface.
Your tears didn’t have a specific reason for pouring out, you feel absolutely devastated for various reasons, but couldn’t figure out which one hurt more.
All you knew is that something or someone triggered it and your day passed by like a lost soul.
You regretted certain aspects of life, you blamed yourself, you couldn’t challenge yourself anymore because you’re afraid of what people will say rather than being concerned about what makes YOU happy, what is beneficial for you, and not what’s best for the family /society.
This is life. A person is too afraid to take a step forward to change their life for their own benefit and happiness due to societies /families demands.
To avoid any misunderstandings, accusations, rumors, judgments. The individual inflicted with a difficulty will choose to pretend that life is great but in actual fact, it’s a disaster.
“Whenever you find yourself doubting how far you can go, just remember how far you have come.
Remember everything you have faced, all the battles you have won, and all the fears you have overcome. ”
Don’t put your focus on people, on expectations that you have to fulfill for other’s satisfaction.
Focus on yourself, you alone know what you have been through, so instead of treading on a path that only allows you to do things for other’s benefit, try treading on a new path that only involves you and what’s going to help you become a better reformed, strong individual.
Create a better connection with your Creator.
Allah Ta’ala is aware of your pain, setbacks, tragedy, misery, difficulties.
Give Him( Allah Ta’ala ) your undivided attention in good and bad times. You shall see the barakah (blessings ) that you will reap inshaAllah.
Remember this sinful slave in your duas inshaAllah.